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I wonder

Apa maksudnya ya bila lelaki tu bila kita mesej tapi dia tak balas tapi selalu nampak online. Cuma setiap malam dia takkan lupa ucapkan selamat malam? (Fyi, kita selalu mesej di Fb messenger). I wonder is he really care about me? is he really want me? last time I used to asked him if he really serious with me and he said yes. I teased him to prove with answering my questions if he really is. So, I started to ask about his personal things and he answered all my questions well. You know, sometimes i felt tired.
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Tired

I want to scream.
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Random (?)

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Assalamualaikum and Hye.. Nothing worth to share. Just... I'm not sure if I said I'm okay with my life now (?). No, I think I'm not. I felt something inside me makes me feel ungrateful, anger, sad and so on. There is something makes me feel unpleasant. But what is it? That's make me CRAZY to think about it. Until ometimes I wish it's more better if I just die . Astaghfirullah You know like others, I had my own future fantasy life  and I want make it happen ! have a beautiful friends that I can hangout every weeks. Have a nice body. Beautiful face uhuk. Have a beautiful life.. but I thinks it's too late now (?) Can someone help me? "She is a free woman, at times she needs her space & other times she needs affection. She loves to be alone, put on loud music & block out reality."
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Birthday celebration

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Assalamualaikum.. 11 days ago was my 23rd birthday. I though no one would celebrate my birthday for this year because the one who'll celebrate my birthday every year is having a trip at Bangkok. Okay, straight to the point. Thanks a lot to my friends because they came from 'the island' and picked me up at home and go straight to the restaurant. My friend A said she want to treat me and B a dinner. So, i just like okay thank you so much for the treat and for the our beautiful port, there's a pool behind my back and i was thinking it would be nice and elegent if we take a photo together? After the maghrib and isyak prayer(we arrived at the restaurant about 8pm and A & B promised to me to pick me at home at 6pm, thats okay) B said she want go to toilet. A and me just okay we went to our port back and there's our dinner in our table. We both have a bit chit chat(its a bit awkward for me actually) while waiting for B and i look B is coming and i noticed that sh...
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happy many returns

Assalamulaikum. Today is my 23rd birthday. Happy birthday to me! and obviously the first wisher is my mom and I sure there's no birthday shout out for this year. People said that in the age of 23 years old is the hardest age ever in life. I think it's true. I had a bit difficult time in my life right now.hemm A few of my friends gonna treat me for my birthday tomorrow. Can't wait to see them ! p/s I hope my sister would buy something for me at Bangkok for the gifted.
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Sorry

Assalamualaikum. Again, I am lying. Not because of my cousin's solemnization was on the same day as kak ana's wedding.(There's no event on that day actually). But, I don't have enough money went to kak ana's wedding-Tanah merah, kelantan since my phone's broke and I need a money to fixed it. That was frustrated of course. Again I'm sorry.
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P A T A H

Assalamualaikum.. Saat saya menulis ni dalam keadaan sedih dan kecewa, sedang menahan air mata dari menitis. Cuba menerima hakikat dan cuba menceriakan hati walaupun dalam keadaan terluka. Saya ada Allah walaupun huluran hati ditolak. Ini bukan kali pertama. Mungkin saya kurang ada rupanya, Mungkin saya sendiri ada khilafnya. Saya juga pernah menolak hati seseorang. Kini saya faham perasaan mereka. Biarlah hati ini terubat dengan sendirinya daripada melayan perasaan yang tidak enak. Biarlah memencilkan diri buat seketika. Saya hampir mencecah usia 23 tahun dan saya perlu berfikiran positif dan matang . Doakan saya agar kuat :')
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